Aug 11, 2010
Lovin U
I first heard this song my freshman year of College at Davis. I remember it was during one of those crazy/spontaneous nights of hanging out with some (at that time) really close friends. I kind of forgot about this song, until very recently when it started playing while my ipod was on shuffle in the car. Funny how memories that you probably don’t consciously think about can all of a sudden appear in your mind’s eye again after so much time passing.
Back then I wasn’t really thinking about the lyrics or what it meant. It was really just a chill groove that I thought had a lot of emotion. Despite the fact that it’s a post break-up song, I think what I take more from it is the message. Even though it may be over, even though things happened to mess up what you had, it never means that in that moment you intended for things to go wrong. To love, I mean genuinely love someone, is hard because to admit that makes a person vulnerable. We know that doing that is something we all don’t like to do. Everyone’s scared to take that first step. No one likes to be vulnerable. Why? Rejection. Plain and simple. And nowadays, saying that you “like” someone has become something you might say on a daily basis. It’s become this kind of short term way of connecting with another person without feeling like you’re giving away your “power” to someone else. But to say you “love”, that’s a different story. For me, I don’t think I could ever stop loving the people who I’ve told (and meant) it to. It’s just the kind of person I am. Whether or not that screws me over sometimes, it’s just what I’ve come to accept as something that will happen. Granted the love I have may change, not because I want it to, but because it has to. Things never are the same after you break up with someone try as you might. But those memories, those little moments, they live on. Sometimes all you need is the right trigger. I’m sure you can relate. Cherish those memories. I know I will.
Just listen. It’s a great song.
